Clocks keeps ticking and we keep getting older. Unlike any other day, early in the day I was wondering what has been changing over time apart from me getting aged. And, it was at that moment that I realized that what I used to call my native confidence is transforming into what you people like to call maturity. Those days are left behind when I was a bullying kid. Just give me enough content to spell something and I used to start bragging about it as if I am some hard-core Harvard pro. I refuted to deny my excellence unless and until I am in with people with real ingenuity. Above all, there was no prospect of attention towards what people around me are talking or thinking .
But, with age and time, I started being meticulous about what what I speak or what they ought to hear. Although it made people around me think as if I am very astute in my age but it always kept me bothering whether this is true me or it was just a façade that I have created around myself.
I am already becoming a zombie full of these unnecessary Q&A's, Sometimes trapped in thoughtfulness of whether it is worth spending my time over these petty things. I have already been waging a war towards correct and incorrect.
So, it's been a while since I have tried speaking my heart out. I always thought that nobody would care about what you truly make of the circumstances presented to you but people are rather more concerned about what pleases their ears. That has long been the irony of the situation and that's how it is supposed to be.
I don't really know whether I am grabbing your attention or if you are starting to feel like some dick head wasting your time, but it feels good to share my thought around with peoples.
But, today was one of those days when I was myself for the entire day. It has been one of the most eventful and serene day for quite a while. Now, since I have just passed my college about two years back my while is a bit shorter. But, moving on, today for the entire day I was carefree, ecstatic, joyous, happy, satisfied, rejuvenated, replenished and content. And, what sums up all I am having an urge to make this day every bit longer since I have never felt so much content over a time.
So, I really don't remember what I was up to earlier in my day. As if nothing feels more important than sharing this feeling, than these thoughts and the calmness that seems tantalizing every moment. I am not some hot shot, I am just a regular guy who keeps working in IT from Monday to Friday. One who didn't have time towards introspection for past few weeks, but, one once tried he loved to be what he used to be in his past, with limited scope and gravity. So, just go and try being yourself once, it did help me and it sure is going to help you. Breaking the shackles that we have created within ourselves gives us great joy when we break them for the right reasons. So live life and prosper!!!
